Sara woke up early for a start. Alec was taking her to a a picnic where he works. She HAD to find something to where that he hadn't seen her in!!! She told her dad but he was busy at his restaurant, and when she asked her mom she told Sara that she was catering for a wedding. This was her brother getting married, and while she was happy for him she wanted to be happy herself. It made her sad that he was younger and already settling down. She begged her brother to help her find an outfit but it wasn't going to happen. He told her she had tons of clothes in her closet to wear and didn't see the importance of needing something new. When she retreated to her room she saw a nice sundress on her bed, attached was the note: Dear Sara, I think this will work. Love, Mom. She knew that was supposed to be a Christmas gift they had picked out, but she was determined to look nice for her boyfriend. As she tried it on like they had in the dressing room before, she felt unworthy of him. She fretted over her waistline for the longest time. She had to cut back on the sweets. When she was sure she look just right she stepped out to see Alec talking to her dad. He glanced at her top to bottom and grinned in a way that made her heart melt. She walked over to him and told him she was ready. He replied by saying " Your gorgeous, Sara." Her dad looked over at them and wished them a good time. As soon as they were in the car, he pulled out of the driveway and onto the road.
When they arrived Sara didn't see many people. Alec said they were early, and when questioning him, he silenced her with a kiss on the lips. When he pulled back she had the look on her face that she wanted more but was satisfied for the moment. What's he thinking in his head? Did I kiss well? She pondered until the door opened for her and he let her out. More people came eventually, and soon they were mingling with the other employees Alec worked with. They were so nice to her, but Sara caught a few stares. She brushed it away, but it brought her back to a younger time when no one would speak to her at school. The workers had the same gaze in their eyes like they thought she was too different from them. She excised herself to the bathroom, and burst into tears. How could Alec want her?! He was so good looking that others made flirty comments to him, and he barely spoke to her. Was he planning to break up after all they'd been through?! Should she break up with him first. Just thinking that sent another wave of sadness coursing through her. She couldn't do that!!! She loved him!!! She thought about what she should do when she came out of the bathroom. She wanted to run out and just sink into her bed at home. But she decided she would just act like nothing was happening until this was over. She knew she should talk to Alec, but she didn't know how to say what was on her mind. When she did come out after wiping her face of smeared makeup her mother helped her put on she couldn't find him. Where did he go? She asked around until she saw him talking to a group of people outside. He caught her gaze but she looked down feeling embarrassed. She said she was hungry and was going to go back to the food bar. Then thinking better of herself she whispered, " Can I talk to you?" He said he would but continued talking to the group about a project their company was working on. She didn't understand why he was so distant. She walked away. She almost spilled punch on his employer coming back in, which she apologized for. "So your the girlfriend Alec keeps talking about. Nice to finally see you in flesh!," and then she quietly said, " Alec always speaks well of you." She shook Sara's hand firmly, and was about to talk, when someone came running up to her, and shouted, "YOU!" "Me?!," Sara responded." The person who confronted her had long wavy red hair, a heart shaped-face, and hazel eyes. Her name was Elaine. Alec seemed to have deep respect for her. She spoke with a poisonous attitude, "How could you do this?!" "What," Sara replied, "What is wrong?" Elaine looked her in the eye, "He won't accept the promotion we've offered him, because he doesn't want to lose you." Sara was scared of her stare. She was angry, and raged, "He should be mine, by the way! He loved me first!" Sara felt like she'd been slapped across the face. He didn't tell her. She looked at Elaine who had her hands on her hips, and ran. She didn't know where she was going; away from here for starters!!! She realized she ended up in her backyard tree house. She climbed slowly and sat on a stool to cry. Emily dropped by. "Sara, why so sad?" Sara recounted the whole story as Emily listened carefully trying not to interrupt. "So," Emily said slowly, "You believe Elaine, and you really think that he didn't take this job offer means it's because of you. Maybe there's another reason." Sara cried out, "It's not fair, I thought we would be together, I'm messing up his life, Emily." Emily looked concerned, " No, couldn't be!" Sara heard footsteps and hid inside the tree house pulling Emily with her. She knew it was him but was too afraid to admit why she left, and what would come next...a breakup? she didn't want it, but she didn't like holding him back. "Sara!" He called. No answer. "Whats happened? Do you not like me? I know what Elaine said, and it's true but not like you think." Sara still couldn't bear seeing him, especially with her red and puffy eyes. She slid farther to the back of the tree house, as Emily looked at her. Emily mouthed her one word, "No." Emily didn't want to see Sara lose Alec. Emily knew she'd regret her decision. But she knew Sara wasn't ready to talk to him. As the footsteps retreated, Emily look through the window, and saw his back towards the tree house, shoulders slumped. She felt sad for Sara, and Alec too. She climbed down the ladder, as Sara followed behind her. Sara felt hollow inside. That night she felt her anger for him seep into her dreams. Why didn't he tell her he had loved before?! And of all people, that witch! Was it over between them. Then she felt sad. How had they gotten here?! She yearned to see him, but she just couldn't be brave.
Next morning Sara checked her cell; no messages. Then she looked up her email, and saw nothing recent. She looked at Alec's facebook briefly. She looked at his relationship status and saw he hadn't broken it off yet. Then she saw Elaine on his friends list and clicked on her photo. It was a picture of her and Alec grinning. Sara thought she be sick. There was a message on her wall. It was from Alec, and read: Can you come over so we can chat? Her heart sunk. For a second she was believed Alec's words to her in the tree house yesterday. Now she was beyond furious. She went to fill her coffee mug. No coffee, thanks dad! She walked back in her room, and planted herself in front of her TV. She put in the movie, Confessions of a Shopaholic, but immediately switched it for The Ring. No romance for her to watch; just blood and guts. Her mom arrived saying Alec was outside waiting for her to answer the door. She ignored that comment, and then, her mother switched off the TV! "MOM!" she yelled. "Sara," her mother started, "What the HELL is going on?!" She was so silent at first, then Sara confessed. Her mother listened patiently, " If you let go of him, you know he will find someone else, don't let the book close, Sara. You two have something special." Sara mulled this over, and started to go to the door. She opened it and saw Alec with his back to her. "Whats up?" She commented. He turned to look at her with red bloodshot eyes, " I'd like to know the same thing!" His anger turned into admiration as he looked at her and heaved a huge breath. Sara owed him the truth. "Well, Elaine said you two had dated before, and she told me that you declined the promotion; that it was my fault! I am not holding you back, Alec. If you are being promoted then TAKE IT!" Alec stared at her, eyes wide, as he said, " I didn't take it because it involved me moving to Manhattan, New York. I am not going to be so far from you, or my family." Sara said, "Well take it, Alec. It could mean success for your business corporation." " You want me to leave?! Sara, I can't do that. It's not just about not being with you. I'm scared to travel." Alec looked sad. Sara replied, " Well, If it were me I'd take this offer, I'd work out the long distance relationship, and learn to cope with it, with everything. What are you scared of?" "That," Alec stated, "You'll find somebody else while I'm gone. Don't deny that this could pull us apart. I wish Elaine had said nothing to you, until I was ready to tell you." Sara replied, " And when was that, ALEC?!" He almost swore, but held it back, saying, "As soon as I could get away from everyone yesterday." "You avoided me,", Sara spoke, "You made me feel that you were pushing me away. "Well," Alec replied, " It's not easy when your smitten with someone as much as I am!" Sara realized what he was saying, and felt sorry for questioning their relationship. She knew this was hard for him, and she'd made it worse by doing a disappearing act on him the other day. She needed time to think. " Alec, I got to go." As soon as she closed the door she regretted it. She opened the door again and he was gone, much to her horror. well, now she'd done it?! She'd never see him again. She slammed the door, only to catch her father's attention. He overheard them and was silent. She decided if he was to go, than she needed to move on. It was just so hard! How could that happen when she was crazy for him. She called his cell, but he didn't pick up. GREAT! Now he really is gone! She decided she needed to let him do this. Maybe their paths would cross again in the future. But for now, she needed to take care of her heart before it broke. She needed to find a way to live without him for now, without hurting her feelings. She's always love him, she knew that. Why was life so hard?!
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